You see, because whether you believe it or not . . ."YOU'RE RIGHT!" No matter what you believe, the universe will respond accordingly, whether it's good or bad. The universe does not discriminate. I guess what I'm trying to say is, "Please don't give up during those terrible times. Step back and realize that you're not in a good place, and there's good reason for it, but try to find that flicker and hold onto it, even if you're raging and heartbroken." You need to slowly condition yourself to react with both the flicker and the other grief you're dealing with. You can do it, I know you can! I have absolute faith in all of you, now have that same faith in yourselves!
My Love To Al, Namaste
Jiml